Friday, July 4, 2014

Just a little thought

Hello everyone,
so here I am again, with some little thought just now, well I don't know, I feel like this blog is the only friend of mine for now, on this time I mean, it's 12 a.m, and yeah.. I just finished watching the IT movie, "The Fault in our Stars". Oh my God, I can't help but burst into tears. It's sweet, really, trust me. But it's also heartbreaking. Don't know is it because the movie is too sad, or it is just me. Oh no, the woman beside me burst into tears too. So I guess I'm normal. haha :)

Okay, first of all I just wondering that I was Hazel *cough*, she's the main character beside Gus. And while watching this sweet little guy named Gus, just made my heart flatters. I just wish that my future man *cough* will love me like Gus's did, oh maybe just like him, except the cancer and the death part, PLEASE NO. And oh this was my favorite part, while Isaac (Gus's bff) said, "I do not believe I have ever met a more physically attractive person who was more acutely aware of his own physical attractiveness.
'But I will say this: When the scientists of the future show up at my house with robot eyes and they tell me to try them on, I will tell the scientists to screw off, because I do not want to see a world without him."
Well, let me admit it, that quotes on the end is one of my fave, well I don't have a chance to say it to someone yet. :')

And this is my fave part of Hazel's :
“My name is Hazel. Augustus Waters was the great sat-crossed love of my life. Ours was an epic love story, and I won't be able to get more than a sentence into it without disappearing into a puddle of tears. Gus knew. Gus knows. I will not tell you our love story, because-like all real love stories-it will die with us, as it should. I'd hoped that he'd be eulogizing me, because there's no one I'd rather have..." I started crying. "Okay, how not to cry. How am I-okay. Okay."

I took a few deep breaths and went back to the page. "I can't talk about our love story, so I will talk about math. I am not a mathematician, but I know this: There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's .1 and .12 and .112 and infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a Bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more numbers than I'm likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn't trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful.” 



And the next fave part is THIS :
“What else? She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.” 


Really I can't help but my tears keep falling down while watching it. Well maybe I used my heart a lot while watching some movies, yeah.. I just keep wondering if I'm in their positions. As you grow older, your heart speaks louder than your mind, just like acts speak louder than words. Get it?

Did I told you that I watched it alone in cinema? Is it weird? HELL NO.
If you know me, I'm a loner kind of person. I enjoyed things alone. I drive alone. I sing alone. I eat, most of time alone. I enjoyed me time. Well.. as long as I can do it myself, and I am happy with it even if I'm alone, that's literally fine. You could say I'm kind of freak. I don't mind. I enjoyed movies alone, most of the time, I hate being in crowd for some reasons. I started hating in a group of people, let me say, group of strangers. I don't know why, even when I'm in a group of people, I always feel like I was alone. So what's the difference being alone & being in a group but still feeling alone? I guess I'm the only one who held the answers. I'll keep it for myself. 

There's time I needed someone to stay by my side, but the time isn't right, or maybe the person I wanted to stay isn't right, etcetera, couldn't help but that's life. You can;t always get whatever you want. Something worth having doesn't come easy. I knew it, for a long time ago. Just like I said, "Easy come, easy go." Remember?

Dude, you have no idea how hurt I am by now. While some people convince me to forget someone, but I couldn't. Ah maybe I could, but it surely takes time, a long time. I am a typical person that once I hurt, it will always there, no matter how hard I'm trying to heal, but the scars is always be there.

When I love, I love deeply, deep than the ocean. But once I hate, nothing could change it. And while some poeple shows some wealth, I don't care, no matter how big or small is your house, no matter how much money you had, your grave is all in the same size, even if you're rich or poor. So stay humble.

And ohh.. I'm a vindictive kind of person, I will always remember every tiny little mistake, every details. Be careful, I might be keep my mouth shuts, and not saying a single word, but inside, I count & I know some bullshits through people's mouth. I may sound & act like a fool, but you never know what's going through my mind. So, watch your move & watch your words. :)

Well that's just a little bad side about me. I'm a good person but NOT an angel, I'm a bad kind of person, but NOT an evil. My behavior based on how you treat me. :)
Good day everyone.


Thursday, July 3, 2014

Pink Pale Blush

Hello everyone,
oh my God it's been so so so long didn't catch up with you guys!
I'm so sorry for lacking some new post in my blog, been busy with some stuffs & work, and also because I lost my wi-fi connections a while ago, but now is fine, I can stay online for 24 hours from now LOL.
Ah what did I say in my last post? I forgot already, lemme check it out now.
OH the etude swatches!! My God, so sorry that I didn't back in few days.
Okay, so today's post is about the swatch, on my face hahahaha. So I let you know first, that this blush didn't popped out because it's in pale pink, so you have to swipe it for couple times if you want the color to pop. Let me show you some of my pic when I'm using this blush... :)

 This is how it looks like in white lighting.
 This is how it looks like in warm lighting.

 in white lighting after blush it for 2 or 3 times




 love my red lippy? it's maybelline anyway in shade #202 ;)


So, I prefer using my INGLOT's blush on on daily basis because it took only once for the color to popped out, instead of using this etude's minnie collection blush, it is frustrating because the minnie logo on the blush is disappear after few blush, so sad. And the highlighter, I use it on my cheeckbones & of course I use MAC too for those healthy glowing skin. :)
But it is so soft and no fall outs while you blush it on your face, in my opinion of course.
Well, I'll give it 6 stars out of 10.

Go to the next topic, I'll post some fake lashes reviews for you and where to buy :D
Till the next post guys!



                                                                                                     xoxo,
                                                                                                     Lia 


Friday, May 23, 2014

Weekend routines

Hello everyone,
so as I promised you before, here I am brought you some makeup thingy again into my blog after so long didn't post any of my face here. LOLOLOLL!
And here we go! :)
So, I'd like to share you some of my makeup routines every weekend, oh yeah I told you I love kind of sexy eyes and thick lashes, so don't be surprised if one day you meet me on weekend and all you can see is my bold & smokey sexy eyes. hahaha :D well you can only see it on weekend, cuz I prefer not putting on heavy makeup on my daily basis.

Check it out! :)












Sorry for my massive selfies, but couldn't help, too many pic left on my harddisc to share hahahaha, major narcism. I'll upload more soon!
So what do you think about my makeup here?
Oh trust me I didn't use any filters on each photos, but few of my friends told me that I look beautiful here *LOLOLOLL* and oh I really really wish this face is permanent, so I don't have to wipe it off :(

The products that I've used as just the same as the others, and ohhh yes I forgot to mention that I bought new skinfinish by MAC, some other eye mask & lip mask, blusher & highlighting powder by Etude, got it from Devi & Trifena while they're in Korea, and bought some Max Factor thingy, especially the foundation, just lost mine while I'm working last time.
Let me share the pic with youuuu ;)






Okay, waste of money I know.
Bought the MAC skinfinish for IDR 400.000, ETUDE for US$65 total, Max factor for IDR 300.000++. I seriously need to manage my outcome!!
Oh I earn money from makeup, I lost it for makeup too. Sad, but happy *DUH*.

Okay, I guess that's the end of the post for now.
I'll be back in few days, and I'm gonna show you the etude blush & highlight swatches, and how it looks like when I applied it on my face. :)

Till the next post fellas..





                                                                             xoxo,
                                                                                                 Lia ♥

Friday, May 16, 2014

Dissapearance.

Hello everyone,
oh my god, it's been so long didn't check up on my blog since last month!
SO sorry for my disappearance for a while, kinda busy with my makeup schedule *COUGH*, oh trust me I told you the truth. And kinda maintenance my life, well living a little healthier than before, including less clubbing, of course.

As you know I'm kind of party animal for current a year and a half, I don't know, it's like something is closing my whole brain & heart, LOL. Okay that's kind of weird words to say. haha.. Oh my, I really don't know what I have to say on this blog today, SERIOUSLY.

Ah few weeks ago, just on person could make me think, I mean think more harder than I already did, one person that can affects me & my life so much. Oh well I know, I won't say a name, or mention anyone. Just this person, could make me think that I can never trust anyone, ever. Because not everyone that smile at you is your friend. YES that's true. Oh okay I would say some words with indonesian cuz it's more easier for me to confess.

Yeah beberapa waktu kemarin, I've been so so so so temperamental you know. I got angry so easily, some people kinda pissed me off, to be frank, including some of my besties kinda pissed me off. Trus ada aplikasi called "ASK.FM" that pissed me off because of the stupid anonymous thing that could ask me whatever they like, including bringing some of privacy thingy. I was so so so so angry to the max, beberapa dr mereka aku rasa cara bicaranya terlalu sinis & nyindir, well it's me, aku juga jadi sinis sama mereka. Then, I kinda frustrated, with the things that's been happening in my life *didn't say that the world is against me but I feel like that sometimes*, with the ups and down.

And so, I need to say thankyou, thankyou for being there, thankyou for opening my eyes again, thankyou for opening my mind, I didn't expect anyone would say those things, but I'm glad that you said it, eventhough it hurt me, oh well I've been hurt so many times, so maybe this just cut a little bit & won't leave scars. #lebayMODEon hahaha :)

This past few months, I've learned a lot, I learned that you can't always depend on someone, the only one you can depend on is only yourself, don't expect someone not hurting you just because they treat you well, high expectation leads you to a deep disappointments. You can only trust yourself, and God. Believe that everything's happen for reasons, life's not easy as you wish, not as sweet as you thought, not as wonderful as fairytales.

So right now, live your life the way you wanted not what other people want to see it. 
Live happily even if you're sad.
Stop thinking about what other people would say, because even if you're nice, people always got something bad to talked about you.
Focus on being a better you, be someone that people said you couldn't.
Keep going! :)

Oh what else that I need to say, I think I'm blank.
I'll see you in another post really soon. *fingercrossed*



                                                                            xoxo,
                                                                                         Lia ♥

Monday, April 21, 2014

Korean inspired look

Hello everyone,
so here I am today again, with another inspired makeup look for you, and OH first of all, let me say Happy Easter!!
Been so long didn't post anything since about 2 weeks ago right?
As usual, I'm having a lot of extra time to play with my stuffs, I mean with my makeup stuffs, and usually I was bored, so I choose to play with my face & makeup.
So let's cut the long talks and straight to the case, LOLOLOLL!

Here's the pictures! :)
















Products that I've used usually was the same as the others makeup look I've posted! :)
Go check to the previous makeup look blog.
We'll see you in another post ladies..




                                                                                             xoxo,
                                                                                                              Lia.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

I'm loving you the best I know how

Not really a necessary post,
but here I am today, well.. duh I couldn't tell what I really feel by now.
Just.. feeling a little romantic today. LOL

Maybe this post sounds really just kind of bullshits, actually, this is what I know about love.
I didn't mean to be an expert here, but I just need some self talk, because it's kinda embarrassing if I have to tell this with someone, well maybe not embarrassing, but kinda awkward..

I may be too young to know about love,
I may be too innocent to understand what's love,
but as long as I know it,
it never goes the way you wanted it to be,
it never ever happen the way you wondered,
and the hardest part of growing up is that fairytales never really exist in real world.
The way I experienced myself,
I never regret anything about it
To be frank, it hurts, yeah it hurts.
No love story always had a happy ending,
But it doesn't mean that you can never had a happy ending though.
The way I see it, I just wonder why I suffered this much?
Why it can't just flow, the way I wanted it to be?
Why I'm always losing the one that really means a lot, the one that I really feel safe when they're around, the one that you want to spend a lifetime together?
And believe me, I never really understand why.
But one thing that keeps me "have a little hope", is that God give me strength to face this.
I know that God never give problems that HE knows I can't handle.

Maybe I don't even understand what's the meaning about love,
the way I see it, I'm just loving someone,
I give the best I can, I do the best I could,
I am human, I made mistakes,
I'm not perfect, I screwed sometimes,
I sometimes can't handle myself,
Well somebody needs a little time to get through it,
but what I really need is someone that could understand,
and just know that it's okay to be not okay sometimes.

Let me tell you this,
I rarely found someone, someone who can make me smile,
I mean a "real" guy, not including my friends.
That's kind of different story.

I rarely found someone,
Someone that can keeps my heart beating only for him.
Someone that when I looked into his eyes, my world feels so complete,
Someone that makes me feel completely safe around him,
Someone that I never get tired of waiting,
That someone, who takes my breath away when he looked into my eyes,
the eyes that I wanted to see for the rest of my life,
the face that I wanted to see when I wake up every morning,
the hands that I wanted to hold and never let go of it,
the one that can never be compared with anything in this world.
The one and only kind of people.

I don't need fancy cars,
I don't need an expensive things,
Every little things that you give, it's just enough for me.
The best gift I ever asked for is YOU.
Every single time Ive spent with you is the moment I treasured.
You give me something that you couldn't get back,
TIME.

Tell me I'm smart with words, yeah I do,
But just let me tell you, that's what I ever feel when I'm with you.
Don't tell me to stop loving you, because I couldn't.
'Cuz Right now I'm loving you the best I know how.


OH WELL, I really wish I could say that whole thing for real. Someday. :)
Goodnight


Saturday, March 29, 2014

Flawless Radiant Face

Hello everyone,
so here I am today, back with another makeup topic *cough*
As you know, I love using BB cream, instead of any other foundations, because it makes my skin look more softer & not so "heavy" & too white. And as long as I ever did makeup, well personally I recommend using the cream foundation for more coverage, to conceal any freckles, pimples, or any redness.
OH, this time I bought the newest CC cream!!
And just to remind you, I'm not so impressed with the last CC cream I've bought (gotta say it's from max factor), but this one, it's different! Really, trust me, beside of the packaging is good, well it's in GOLD. I love gold. haha :D



It's from ELIANTO, well, it's a Malaysian makeup brand.
They got the white one, it's for whitening, since my skin is white enough, so I need this gold one.
It's called infinity youth, well I guess it's for anti-aging. Remembering that I had this wrinkles on my forehead, old enough huh? LOL!
First of all, all you can see is a white cream on my hand, but it magically match into your skin color, so they only had one color only. COOL or what?
See the pictures below! ;)







Can you see the radiance? That glowing part on my hand?
This is my instant love makeup product ever.
The price is 360K (in rupiahs), not so expensive though.
And here's the result on my face. ;)
Take a look!

 without blush & lipstick






Till the next post dear ;)





                                                                                xoxo,
                                                                                        Lia